男人的爱

人们长说痴男怨女，古人已经解释得很清楚了。痴男，男人对爱的痴情， 对感情的专一，也只有男人自己才知道。女人一辈子可以爱上多个男人，而男人亦可以同时爱上多个女人。可是，女人却不知道，其实男人一辈子只爱过一个！真正的，无怨无悔的，满怀希望的爱...

男人真正纯洁的爱只有一次。当那次的爱来了，他会不顾一切；当那次的爱死了，就不会再有了。那次的爱太深，带来的痛也同样太深！所以那次之后，男人的爱也就麻木了。男人以后也会爱上别的女孩，只是那种爱却已不再纯洁，包含了欲望，包含了同情，包含了怜惜...

女人的心都是水做的。然而，最毒也是妇人心。所以受伤最多的是女人，伤人最深的也是女人。女人的爱可以有很多次，而男人，却永远只有一次。男人遇到那个最爱的女孩之后，把所有的爱都给了她。可是，有多少女孩懂的珍惜？于是男人哭了！流泪了！伤心至极而绝望的泪水...慢慢的，男人开始亲手去埋葬自己那唯一的爱，把它尘封在自己心底最深处的某个深渊。每当夜深人静的时候，他会疯狂的跳进那个深渊，妄想试图去寻找那次爱的痕迹，哪怕是只有一丝丝，一点点...可结果却跟以往一样的一无所获。留下的，只剩自己的身影，孤独的缩在黑暗的角落，孤独的一根根抽着寂寞的烟，孤独的流着伤心的泪水。 　　

扪心自问，女人埋怨着男人的花心的时候，是否曾想过男人最珍贵的东西正是被你们无情的毁灭了吗？当男人羞涩的对你说“我爱你”的时候，你珍惜了吗？你在乎了吗？当男人为你流泪的时候，你帮他擦拭了吗？当男人乞求你别离开的时候，你回头了吗？ 　

女人都说男人人花心，但女人可曾知道男人的花心，是因为痴心！爱极而痴，痴极而痛，痛极而死。真正的爱灰飞烟灭后，男人那“爱”的心就死了。或许，男人再也不会对女人真心的付出了。没有了心劲，没有了激情，痛彻心扉的伤害，男人不再相信爱情，因为有些事，有些爱，一辈子只有一次。当男人全心爱过一个人之后，该付出的付出了，全心全力的去尝试把握过了！曾试图给她想要的一切，曾极端的试图为她而死。得到的回报，是无 动 于 衷！ 一次次寂寞的等待中，心血一点一滴的滴干了，直至最后心血全无，心灰意冷。

当爱情失去信仰，当感情失去忠一的港湾后，对于男人来说,，爱情是什么，就都显的无所谓了！男人的心冷了，就再也难以热起来，因为爱过一次之后，已经让他失去了爱的能力。 　
　
女孩们，有这样一份爱情摆在你面前，请你珍惜好吗？至少给男孩一个机会好吗？这样子，就算结局依然是心死，男孩也认了、瞑目了...

from: online web source..

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emotion highly unstable this few day~~gosh~~~grrr~~~

It is 090909!!

ok guys, very obviously today's post is gonna about 090909.. the whole world is crazy about this so called 'forever and ever' important and meaningful date.. friends bcome lover today, lover get engage today, and so on..everybody hope to do something on today hoping to last long,forever and ever..
tonite my kolej gonna have a Pesta Tanglung Bestari organise by KKCB( Kelab Kebudayaan Cina Bestari). All the best to the OC of PTB..Hope this project really become a legend in 4th as the theme is, and be part of your all best memory..Best wishes from me..
very coincidently, one of my friends birthday is today!!her very first 090909 birthday..( she is not 1st years old, some very complicated thing, since i m lazy to explain,so let's assume her birthday exactly on today la..=p). best wishes from me to you, all the best, be merry, be cheerful and hope to keep in touch with u in future..

actually nothing to post now, the purpose of this post is jz to leave a footstep on this special date in my blog..

4:39am 29/08/2009

nothing to post actually..just want to scribble something and have some hand excersice..
today is saturday,yesterday is friday..
for KL residently, Friday might be the entertainment night..
Same goes to me also..friday mean holiday (althought friday morning still got class from 8am-10am, follow by 3pm-5pm the seminar talk on how to write thesis thing and report...but who cares!!! it is still a holiday after all!!!!!!!)

is sleepy now..perharps i will continue next time la..IF AND ONLY IF i hardworking enough..

Che ling at tropicana mall

another performance at tropicana city mall in conjuction with the swishing party organize by nesh with aiesce.
sorry for the bad quality (record by handphone ma)

Random update

actually nothing much to blog about me myself..jz want to do some shout-out since i cant scream out loud in the hostel.or else i will be in trouble-->is either being scold be others for being noisy,disturb the peacefulness, or may be being thrown into the asylum(i wouldn't want that to happen since i am TOTALLY normal. i doesn't hv the genetik of AB which make me ABnormal).

It is 8.04am, 14/08/2009, friday, peaceful morning with my rumate stil sleeping with his blanket all over him just like cocoon or mummy. it is freezing cold in the room. Ok ok, may be it is not freezing cold since the ceiling fan speed is just 4. i have no idea why my room is so cold in the morning and yet hot at night although the fan speed is the same.

Event 1:
this week is the convocation week of UM. As usual, as the junoir of those fresh graduate( correct me if the term is incorrect), we will go to the dataran outside the hall, waiting for them to come out just to congrate them...

(sleep first..to be continue)

母親，我怎麼讓你等了那麼久

> 文/ 劉繼榮
> 心情隨筆｜家庭親子2009/06/03 10:08:12

母親真的老了，變得孩子般纏人，每次打電話來，總是滿懷熱誠地問：「你什麼時候回家？」
且不說相隔一千多里路，要轉三次車，光是工作、孩子已經讓我分身無術，哪裡還抽得出時間回家。 母親的耳朵不好，我解釋了半天，她仍舊熱切地問：「你什麼時候能回來？」
幾次三番，我終於沒有了耐心，在電話裏衝母親大聲嚷嚷，她終於聽明白，默默掛了電話。
隔幾天，母親又問同樣的問題，只是那語調怯怯地，沒有了底氣。
像個不甘心的孩子，明知問了也是白問，可就是忍不住。
我心一軟，沉吟了一下。
母親見我沒有煩，立刻開心起來。她欣喜地向我描述：「後院的石榴都開花了，西瓜快熟了，你回來吧。」
我為難地說：「那麼忙，怎麼能請得上假呢！」
她急急地說：「你就說媽媽得了癌，只有半年的活頭了！」我立刻責怪她胡說，她呵呵地笑了。
小時候，每逢颳風下雨，我不想去上學，便裝肚子疼，被母親識破，挨了一頓好罵。
現在老了，她反而教著女兒說謊了，我又好氣又好笑。
這樣的問答不停地重複著，我終於不忍心，告訴她下個月一定回去，母親竟高興得哽咽起來。

可不知怎麼了，永遠都有忙不完的事，每件事都比回家重要，最後，到底沒能回去。
電話那頭的母親，仿佛沒有力氣再說一個字，我滿懷內疚：「媽，生氣了吧？」
母親這一回聽真了，她連忙說：「孩子，我沒有生你的氣，我知道你忙。」
可是沒幾天，母親的電話催得越發緊了。
她說，葡萄熟了，梨熟了，快回來吃吧。我說，有什麼稀罕，這裏滿大街都是，花個十元八元就能吃個夠。
母親不高興了，我又耐下性子來哄她：「不過，那些東西都是化肥和農藥餵大的，哪有你種的好呢。」母親得意地笑起來。

星期六那天，氣溫特別高，我不敢出門，開了空調在家裏呆著。孩子嚷嚷雪糕沒了，我只好下樓去超市買。
在暑氣蒸騰的街頭，我忽然就看見了母親的背影。
看樣子她剛下車，胳膊上挎著個籃子，背上背著沉甸甸的袋子，她彎著腰，左躲右閃著，怕別人碰了她的東西。
在擁擠的人流裏，母親每走一步都很吃力。
我大聲地叫她，她急急抬起滿是熱汗的臉，四處尋找，看見我走過來，竟驚喜地說不出話來。
一回到家，母親就喜滋滋地往外捧那些東西。她的手青筋暴露，十指上都纏著膠布，手背上有結了痂的血口子。
母親笑著對我說：「吃呀，你快吃呀，這全是我挑出來的。」
我這沒有出過遠門的母親，只為著我的一句話，便千里迢迢地趕了來。
她坐的是最便宜、沒有空調的客車，車上又熱又擠，但那些水靈靈的葡萄和梨子都完好無損。
我想像不出，她一路上是如何過來的，我只知道，在這世上，凡有母親的地方就有奇蹟。
母親只住了三天，她說我太辛苦，起早貪黑地上班，還要照顧孩子，她乾著急卻幫不上忙。
城裏的廚房設施，她一樣也不敢碰，生怕弄壞了。
她自己悄悄去訂了票，又悄悄地一個人走。

才回去一星期，母親又說想我了，不住地催我回家。我苦笑：「媽，你再耐心一些吧！」
第二天，我接到姨媽的電話：「你媽媽病了，你快回來吧。」
我急得眼前發黑，淚眼婆娑地奔到車站，趕上了最後一趟車。
一路上，我心裏不住地祈禱。
我希望這是母親騙我的，我希望她好好的。
我願意聽她的嘮叨，願意吃光她給我做的所有飯菜，願意經常抽空來看她。
此時，我才知道，人活到八十歲也是需要母親的。
車子終於到了村口，母親小跑著過來，滿臉的笑。
我抱住她，又想哭又想笑，嗔怪道：「你說什麼不好，說自己有病，虧你想得出！」
受了責備的母親，仍然無限地歡喜，她只是想看到我。
母親樂呵呵地忙進忙出，擺了一桌子好吃的東西，等著我的誇獎。
我毫不留情地批評：「紅豆粥煮糊了；水煎包子的皮太厚；滷肉味道太鹹。」
母親的笑容頓時變得尷尬，她無奈地搔著頭。
我心裏暗笑，我知道，一旦我說什麼東西好吃，母親非得逼我吃一大堆，走的時候還要帶上
就這樣，我被她餵得肥肥白白，怎麼都瘦不下去。而且，不貶低她，我怎麼有機會佔領灶台呢？
我給母親做飯，跟她聊天，母親長時間地凝視著我，眼裏滿是疼愛。
無論我說什麼，她都虔誠地半張著嘴，側著耳朵凝神地聽，就連午睡，她也坐在床邊，笑咪咪地看著我。
我說：「既然這麼疼我，為什麼不跟著我住呢？」她說住不慣城裏的高樓。
沒呆幾天，我就急著要回去，母親苦苦央求我再住一天。
她說，今早已託人到城裏買菜了，一會兒準能回來，她一定要好好給我做頓飯。
縣城離這兒九十多里路，母親要把所有她認為好吃的東西都弄回來，讓我吃下去，她才能心安。
從姨媽家回來的時候，母親精心準備的菜餚，終於端上了桌，我不禁驚詫──
魚鱗沒有刮盡、雞塊上是細密的雞毛、香油金針菇裏居然有頭髮絲。無論是葷的還是素的，都讓人無法下箸。
母親年輕時那麼愛乾淨，如今老了竟邋遢得這樣。母親見我挑來挑去就是不吃，她心疼地妥協了，送我去坐夜班車。
天很黑，母親挽著我的胳膊。她說，你走不慣鄉下的路。
她陪我上了車，不住地囑咐東囑咐西，車子都開了，才急著下去，衣角卻被車門夾住，險些摔倒。
我哽咽著，趴在車窗上大叫：「媽，媽，你小心些！」
她沒聽清楚，邊追著車跑邊喊：「孩子，我沒有生你的氣，我知道你忙！」
這一回，母親仿佛滿足了，她竟沒有再催過我回家，只是不斷地對我說些開心的事：
「家裏又添了隻很乖的小牛犢；明年開春，她要在院子裏種好多好多的花。」聽著聽著，我心裏一片溫暖。

到年底，我又接到姨媽的電話。她說：「你媽媽病了，快回來吧。」
我哪裡相信，我們前天才通的話，母親說自己很好，叫我不要掛念。
姨媽只是不住地催我，半信半疑的我還是回去了，並且買了一大袋母親愛吃的油糕。
車到村頭的時候，我伸長脖子張望著，母親沒來接我，我心裏忽地就有了種不祥的預感。
姨媽告訴我，給我打電話的時候，母親就已經不在了，她走得很安詳。
半年前，母親就被診斷出了癌症，只是她沒有告訴任何人，仍和平常一樣樂呵呵地忙裏忙外
並且把自己的後事都安排妥當了。
姨媽還告訴我，母親老早就患了眼疾，看東西很費勁。
我緊緊地把那袋油糕抱在胸前，一顆心仿佛被人挖走。

原來，母親知道自己剩下的日子不多了，才不住地打電
話叫我回家，她想再多看我幾眼，再和我多說幾句話。
原來，我挑剔著不肯下箸的飯菜，是她在視力模糊的情況下做的，我是多麼的粗心！
我走的那個晚上，她一個人是如何摸索到家，她跌倒了沒有，我永遠都無從知道了。
母親，在生命最後的時光裏，還快樂地告訴我，牽牛花爬滿了舊煙囪，扁豆花開得像我小時候穿的紫衣裳。
你留下所有的愛，所有的溫暖，然後安靜地離開。
我知道，你是這世上唯一不會生我氣的人，唯一肯永遠等著我的人
也就是仗著這份寵愛，我才敢讓你等了那麼久。

可是，母親啊，我真的有那麼忙嗎？

this the email i receive recently..jz wana share with friends..nowaday seems i loss my passion toward blogging..hopefully someday in future i can get back my passion..

it is 1.42pm in the morning, and yet i still up here online..suppossingly i shuld be in my bed, having greet time with MR. CHEW ad..but, i dont know what happened to me nowadays..seems lost interest towards everything i have gone thru all this time..

being alone and pathetic is not what i want..but what i want the most?? this is a simple yet tough question that i cant even answer it..

being playful and childish all the time,not serious toward carrying task, longing for something/someone that wont happen again/far away from me..some say we shuld hv dream..well, it doesnt means that i disagree with them..but everything must have its own pro and cons.................bla bla...i dont even know that i am crapping about here..jz simply wan to write and scribble on the white screen..perharps being emo may be..

so plz ignore me...

Hari ini, ku rasa bahagia,
berkumpul bersama saudara semua
(kau sahabatku, kau saudaraku
tiada yang dapat memisahkan kita) x2
bergandingan tangan dalam kasih,
dalam satu hati bersama-sama saudara semua,
(kau sahabatku, kau saudaraku
tiada yang dapat memisahkan kita) x2

What Jagung Means: J is for Joyous

J is for Joyous A is for Alluring G is for Gentle U is for Unnatural N is for Nervy G is for Goofy

What Does Your Name Mean?

What Kingfong Means: K is for Keen

K is for Keen I is for Intelligent N is for Normal G is for Gifted F is for Friendly O is for Organic N is for Neglected G is for Giddy

What Does Your Name Mean?

Field work in Mersing, Johor..

today is jz the third day of the Chinese New Year and yet i already in Johor for my fieldwork...
isn't i suppose still stay in Sibu to celebrate Chinese New Year??
haiz...
anyway, hereby, stilll want to wish everyone in this world a Happy Chinese New Year..
To my family member, sorry because i can't stay long to celebrate chinese new year with you all..
to all my other chinese friends, i wish i could go out to tuan bai with you all, but i can't...sorry ya..

Happy Chinese New Year !!

〓〓┓┏〓〓┓┏〓〓┓┏〓〓┓
┃祝您┃┃永远┃┃快乐┃┃健康┃
┗〓〓┛┗〓〓┛┗〓〓┛┗〓〓┛
۞ ♥*´`*• ¸▒ 合 家 平 安 ▒¸ •*´`*♥ ۞
۞ ♥*´`*• ¸▒ 吉 祥 如 意 ▒¸ •*´`*♥ ۞
۞ ♥*´`*• ¸▒ 身 体 安 康 ▒¸ •*´`*♥ ۞
۞♥*´`*• ¸▒ 爱 情 甜 蜜 ▒¸ •*´`*♥۞

4th RC swimming team

in the past 72 hours, i am in good mood..

why?
dun ask...

jz because i got bronze medal in the SUKMUM swimming competition...
*weeee*

Sukan Mahasiswa Universiti Malaya a.k.a SUKMUM is being held every year, as usual, and of course...

and this year, i join the swimming team..

of course, we have to undergo training lo...
for the whole week, no matter day or night, we are being "forced" to do hell training..
let's see the training time table..

• wake up at 6.45am EARLY in the morning (when my roomate is still sleep on the nice soft bed with warm blanket, argh!!) to jog.
• untill 8am, then the early training session is over..by the time i go back my room, my two roomates is STILL sleeping and yet i am the one so energetic ready to go to class...haiz...have no idea whether this is good or bad...

this is only land training in the morning...how bout evening or night time where we will have our " water fight"? let's have a look...

• warm up by swimming 200 m or 400 m sometimes. the pool is olympic size, 50 m in length.
• then start training by 100 m x 8...means that we will have to swimming 100 metre for 8 times..every time you finish 100 m, you can only stop to bubble for 10 times only..
• 50m x 16...same as 100 m x 8....
• cool down 200 m or 400 m...

actually this kind of training is quite light for a swimmer...we would call it hell training because we are normal swimmer!! we aren't professional swimmer ma..so not so use to it at very beginning...but a last, it is like normal to us already...

for the whole week before the competition at 19 and 20 January 2009, this is our program...land training in the morning and swim at night.at night time i go back to my room, it is around 10pm already...unpackk my bag and i am ready to bed.. seriously, swimming is TIRING !!!!!

although it is tiring, but you can see the change in me..

for the first time , my record for 100 m is 4.53 minute while others is 2 minute something..
it means, i am totally 1 lap slower than them !!! what the...
then after the training, i manage to swim for 100 m in 1.55 minute...yipee..that's good..
i though 1.55 minute is the best record i ever had..

but in the competition, i was shocked by my newest record!! 1.49 minutes!! even faster than the training!!
*wow*
unbelieveable for myself..
as for others team member, everyone break their own record in the competition also...
*wee*
so what can you say about competition and training???
perharp competition can unlock your unknown power inside your body in which you yourself don't know even during the training time..

feel like want to talk and write forever about this topic but i would use my laziness as excuse..i will stop here and let the picture do the talk..


oh no, the futsal goal will collapse if we don't support it!!!

this is one of the warm up / streching session.

early breakfast (1am) right after swimming competition at 'ming tian' center

the only bronze medal and tiger doll belong to me..*yipee*

all the medal 4th RC swimming team won in 2 days..2 golds, 8 silvers and 15 bronzes..2 more bronzes is not in the picture..

our coach, Raymond...thx coach, for your teach and training..

dinner after swimming..

KT..

hello, i am back..hehe..this post suppose to be posted few day ago, but i am lazy ma...too tire for the hell training everyday..this is about the trip to terengganu where we are invited to perform in Kuala Terengganu..

today let's jz let the picture and video do the talk...

this is where we will perform later..inside the china town of kuala terengganu

lets photo before lunch time..pray for a better performance later...cheers..
not forget mentioning that, the photographer is our beloved 志权..thank you..

ok, finish lunch, lets go for a walk and then start practise lo..

the naughty kid from the neighbourhood in the resort..tending to be superman? cute and innocent.

this is where we live, an apartment with 3 room in it which fit 11 people of us..

roomate, heart u..hehe..

junoir geng...bravo..proud of u all...


i never now that diabolo can become bowling.. =.='''
and also he can be so good in it...

on the bus, before go back to kl...

again, on the bus...only me with the sun glass...wear sun glass in the bus?? crazy guy..

part 1 of the performance (pk solo part)

part 2 (group pk part)

part 3 (junoir group part 1)

part 4 (junoir group part 2)

part 5 (senoir group)

part 6 (the ending part)

tiring sencond year life..

nowaday getting more and more tire and lazy liao.program, event, aktiviti, and also academic stuff come one by one...feel like wana gone crazy liao..a lot of stuff being push aside, leaving untouched..haiz...
i m jz too tire liao la..